Affidavit

December 14, 8:46pm

No, this blog has nothing to do with the title. But that's the word I have been hearing all day, and its pronounced affideyvit, not affidahfit..so there...

If there is one place which I do not want to be in, right now, it is the Nigerian Law School, Lagos Campus, Victoria Island. I want to be at the Redemption Camp! Holy Ghost Congress...*sigh*...the sights, sounds, everything would have been so pleasantly distracting from my life at the moment...*sigh again*... Ah well, I can console myself that If Jesus tarries, and by His grace, I ll be out of law school, and quite free to attend by next year.

I am in a state of mind which I cannot really explain. I'm not happy, or sad, definately not chirpy. I prefer to be on my own, easily irritated by too much talk. I miss the weekends when I was all alone with my thoughts. I feel like I'm getting more sensible. No more do I take it too personal, the fact that my opinion may not mean all that much to some people. I mean hey, to everyone his life and his choices. All that self-deluding crap that I was deceiving myself with, that Oh I have some 'special power' of conviction and appeal and some sort of influence existed only in my pain-saturated mind,cos the truth of the matter is, people don't get convinced, unless they want to be convinced. And of course unless the Holy Spirit convicts them. So wetin consain me consain monkey wey wan jump for river?

Anywayz, I want Chinese rice o! But I can't afford it. I'm as broke as broke itself. Thankfully I have some business coming in this holiday, so I should be okay by the end of Christmas. In the meantime...the monthly visitor announces her arrival...And I am hungry!